ah la la la la la la life is wonderful/ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

so, i'm back on myspace, simply because everyone i wanted to keep in touch with in Miami is on Myspace.
http://www.myspace.com/captbackfire
I hate you all. My true space? tribe.net. (click the title!!) it's just way less retarded. Plus, did I mention really cute guys sending you random messages? but alas, i could not convert my friends, so i am forced to double dip. Oh well, at least I'll be able to hear the new Franz Ferdinand single.
...when I get to the flat and get to play with the holy grail of DSL.

penultimate day at work today. had to say goodbye to Dede & George, two who have been there since I started... and Fabulous Kameece, who first inspired me to ask the question: WWSJPD? Not to mention Frankie, but he's always with me as he's the only person who I always see online. I will miss his filthy, dirty mind, his truly wicked laugh, and the way he let me molest his muscled arms. I will think of him everytime I take home the F train... the train near my house.... the train that he called... wait for it- The Rape Train. Ah yes, I will think of him often.

tomorrow is it. i'm FREAKED OUT/PSYCHED/TIRED. work, more goodbyes (although I suck at goodbyes & keep saying "see ya later" when we all know it ain't true). Then dinner with Lily, Crazyhead E+C. (Will the "Crazyhead" name work offline? I dunno. Maybe I should give it up.) This year has been a fucking ride- who would have thought I'd be celebrating leaving for NYC at all? Much less that I'd be leaving *before* Lily who talked me into the fucking thing?? Or that we'd be celebrating this with E+C? I'm so relieved that my... oh, there's only one word for it and it's supergay: Drama- is water under the bridge, that seeing the two of them together just once made me go "oh. of course!" because it seemed like they're so good together. (Not to mention the relief I felt when I finally thought, "ok C's not going to kick my ass, or anything." because, seriously? i was worried.) I never would have thought that our friendship would have been repaired, or that there would be the potential for a new friendship I never even expected. There's so much more that I can't believe... I never saw the light at the end of the tunnel around late winter/early spring. I never would have imagined what or who was at the end of it or that we'd all arrive here unscathed (well, little bruises- they heal faster than I expected, though) and intact. I can't wait to get up to NY & see X+J. And then for Lily to hit NY. And then E+C. And Gill... I can't believe how lucky we all are to be starting this giant adventure at the same time, because even though we're going up separately, we'll still end up together, creating our very own support system... dare I say- our very own family. Does that make any fucking sense? I'm tired. I'm incoherant. I wish I had a recording of the answering machine message I left for one of my favorite customers today. I told her that tomorrow was my last day & that it was a pleasure helping her & talking to her these past few years. Then, "I hope you have a wonderful-" LIFE! I was going to say LIFE! I went, "um, Year!!" But at the moment? Yeah, I'm feeling pretty sure that I'm on the road to a wonderful life. I can't wait for all of our roads to converge again.

-rick
ipod: U2/In the Name of Love (which could explain getting all teary eyed and sentimental and contemplative)
title quote: Jason Mraz "Life is Wonderful" from Mr. A-Z (yeah, I used it before. I'm recycling now. Nothing is original, etc etc.)
hours left until BN2792 is a thing of the past: 17!!!