last night i had the strangest dream/i sailed away to china/in a little rowboat to find ya/you said you had to get your laundry clean

Weird dream last night. There was a big book event- at my house. AND it was on the same day that we were supposed to be having a birthday party (possibly for me) so I was all concerned that the book people wouldn't leave in time for the party to begin. However, at some point in all this, I was sitting at a picnic table eating fried chicken next to Neil Gaiman and completely hogging the conversation (as i tend to do) until he just stood up and left.
very odd.

Went to Central Park on Sunday and it was incredibly beautiful, just what I needed. My ipod, the Bethesda Fountain & The Time Traveler's Wife=good therapy. Much better than riding the F Train to nowhere at 1:00 Sunday morning in tears. Fuck it. But the Park really made me go from totally hating myself/life/the whole fucking world to remembering that I'm totally falling in love with this city. Please God let me find a way to afford to stay.

Lily, Gilliane & I went to Crash Test last night to see Todd Barry. I actually found one of the other acts to be much funnier- they did a whole bit about Pocahontas & John Smith that was pee-your-pantsworthy. Otherwise it was just ehhh. Wish today was Wednesday, because I kinda feel like crap and the thought of going in to work feeling this way is not very appealing... but I know that we're already going to be short by two and would feel worse if I screwed them over more. Although, I really must stop worrying so much about others. And fuck, I really want to stay in my bedroom with the Gilmore Girls and some chocolate chip mint ice cream.

Funniest moment in the second worst weekend of 2005:
ME: (blah blah blah) or do I make you feel uncomfortable?
LILY: ... too soon.

ok that's it. btw- my review for Audrey Niffenegger's new book, Three Incestuous Sisters is up on the Pictures and Frames site- that's http://www.picturesandframesmagazine.com. There's also a lovely panel discussion about the horror that is CATWOMAN in the dvd reviews. So go, check it out. ciao.