if you wrote me off i'd understand it/'cause i've been on some other planet/so come pick me up/i've landed

Stupid B&N!! They had a bookfair tonight- they have basically an entire school, parents & kids come in for a few hours, it gets INSANE, they make a huge mess. And tomorrow is day our district manager comes in for her once a year visit bullshit. we were all in kids till 1 in the morning because it was like a fucking bomb had gone off.

IT'S BEN FOLDS DAY!! (click on the link in the beautiful & timely quote that serves as my subject line to visit his page & find out about SONGS FOR SILVERMAN) Sadly, I actually got really screwed on the Ben Folds front- I got the special edition- which is a cd & a dvd in a really cool package. However the regular version is one of those new dualdiscs (CD on one side, flip it over & it's a dvd). The dualdisc has this Making of feature as well as the entire album in 5.1 dvd-audio AND a bonus version of "landed" with strings... The special edition dvd only has the feature, not the 5.1 album or the extra song!! Which means I woulda been better off if i had y'know, bought it for 11 bucks at fucking best buy!! grrr. whatever, i still love Ben. but he owes me.

In other music news? Reel Big Fish have a new cd out (that's shock #1- Reel Big Fish are still around). They cover a couple of songs- one being a Morrissey song (you know- I tried, but I can't get into Morrissey. I think that should have been a sign.) another being... "Talkin' 'bout a revolution" by Tracy Chapman. It is so wrong. on so many levels. I mean, seriously. I sampled it. I wanted so badly to throw the cd across the room or something. Awful.

Has anyone ever read A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius? or is it A Staggering Work of Heartbreaking Genius? I think it's going to be my next book. I have that as well as another Sarah Vowell book (Radio On: A Listener's Diary) on bat, but i'm leaning towards David Eggers for a few reasons. A: Rory was reading it in Gilmore Girls last week and maybe if I model my life after hers, I too will be able to make out with the adorable Matt Czuchry. B: David Eggers is quite a hottie. (Which is not a knock at Vowell, but we all know that I prefer... ok I had to edit myself. Men.) C: This is the last Sarah book that I haven't read & who knows when she'll write something new and I will be able to read her again, so I should save it for later. It's all about savoring, kids. BTW- yet another reason that Matty is my favorite Matt in the world? He was the one who introduced me to Sarah Vowell, by sending me a copy of TAKE THE CANNOLI and saying that her "voice" reminded him of me. THAT is a huge compliment (one I'm not totally deserving of -she's much smarter than I could ever be) but I'll take it anyway. Which reminds me- this lovely woman who comes into my store quite often and recently remarked on my weight loss was back tonight. "You keep getting skinnier & skinnier" she said. I was like... YOU ARE LYING!! Because I hadn't done situps in like a month, before yesterday & I'm feeling like a fat blob again. But it made my day to hear her say it anyway... I don't know what my problem is, never being able to accept a COMPLIMENT even, but I've gotten to the point where I'm just as uncomfortable about people mentioning my losing weight as I am when they mention that I've gained it. I really am a therapist's dream, kids. (And dirty little voyeurs, although I don't think I tipped any of them off when I relocated, did I? hmmm... shame.)

Well, honestly, this is all I want to do for the forseeable future. Read books. Watch Gilmore Girls. I really feel the need to be where people are not. I'm hermiting, I'm feeling anti-social, I really just want to disappear inside myself for a bit... Disappearing. sounds lovely. But alas, I can't disappear because I have to go back to work Thursday and make money, to move to Brooklyn with Lily & Chris (where are you, Chris?!?).

Which reminds me- I know how paradoxical this probably sounds, talking about staying inside my room and hermiting, but I mentioned to Lily that I'd really like to volunteer at the GLBT Center in NY. I've always harbored fantasies about being involved in the Gay community, only in Miami we don't really seem to have one. That's not true, I'm sure there's... something. Anyway, they have a really interesting website & you know- I could volunteer in their library once a week. It sounds interesting and definitely the sort of change that I hope to make when I get up there...

And i'm sorry, Lily, because you had to read all of this twice, but I edited, so you can re-live it, if you wish. Do you know it took me this long to realize this, but I kept thinking "I thought her boss was a woman..."


-rick
in the dvd player: The Making of Howards End
in the discman: BEN FOLDS: SONGS FOR SILVERMAN, duh...