just when i thought our chance had past/you go and save the best for last...

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What is your name?:	Rick
Are you named after anyone?:	yes. my mom recently reminded me who he was. i have already forgotten, but he did karate in our back yard with my dad.
What's your screename?:	captain backfire
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	no! i want no children!
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	Kelly? because my dad had a thing for Jaqueline Smith from Charlie's Angels
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	I would switch names with my friend Alexis Bledel!!
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	Yes, they mispronounce my last name a lot. It's hard to explain here though.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	And just be "Rick"? No thanks.
Basics
Your gender::	Male
Straight/Gay/Bi::	Gay
Single?:	Single. *sigh*
If not, do you want to be?:	if not single, would i want to be single? that's harsh. what if my hypothetical boyfriend had read that?
Birthdate::	12.12.73
Your age::	31
Age you act::	24
Age you wish you were::	28. this way i wouldn't be so much older than everyone i know.
Your height::	5.11
Eye color::	blue. ish.
Happy with it?:	my eye color? yeah.
Hair color::	blonde. ish.
Happy with it?:	um. this year, i am.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	righty! mostly.
Your living arrangement::	i live in a little house in brooklyn. with 3 lunatics!!
Your family::	live in miami. are nice. i miss them.
Have any pets?:	no. "when is cat coming?"
Whats your job?:	i am a book slave.
Piercings?:	no thank you.
Tattoos?:	still no.
Obsessions?:	several.
Addictions?:	dvds!
Do you speak another language?:	i speak the language of LOVE! ...not really.
Have a favorite quote?:	yes but i can't remember it right now. it's something from Mansfield Park about how "she preferred her own thoughts to the conversation of others..." something like that.
Do you have a webpage?:	rickslepthere.blogspot.com
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	not usually
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	yeah. way too tolerant.
Do you have any secrets?:	i do. you do. we all do! but Matty knows most of mine
Do you hate yourself?:	yes. often.
Do you like your handwriting?:	when i am not so rushed it's okay. but mostly when i'm writing i'm thinking "wow, if i was typing i'd be faster!"
Do you have any bad habits?:	ask Lily.
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	um. that i'm SOOOOO nice.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	The 40 Year Old Virgin. Oh, sorry, Lily...
What's your biggest fear?:	Flying, maybe.
Can you sing?:	I wish I could sing. I do anyway.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	yeah, i pretend to be someone who's not a total loser. sometimes it works.
Are you a loner?:	yes.
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	right now? being able to afford living here on my own.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	maybe. maybe not.
Are you a daredevil?:	not quite.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	i do fear that i'll never figure out what to do with my life.
Are you passive or agressive?:	passive.
Do you have a journal?:	i have a blog. i'm thinking of starting a journal though- there are some things i should maybe keep to myself.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	strength: my patience, maybe. weakness: being a bit of... a wuss.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	my voice.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	strong or heartless? there's a thin line.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	many many things.
Do you think life has been good so far?:	i've been lucky in many ways. but it's been a lifetime of nothing special.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	Credit Cards Are Evil.
What do you like the most about your body?:	my hair is really soft?
And least?:	do you have an hour or two?
Do you think you are good looking?:	no.
Are you confident?:	have you been reading this? no.
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	Gwyneth Paltrow in Moonlight & Valentino
Are you perceived wrongly?:	I think sometimes, yes.
Do You...
Smoke?:	no.
Do drugs?:	no.
Read the newspaper?:	not really.
Pray?:	occassionally.
Go to church?:	no. i'm not about organized religion. at all.
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	sometimes.
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	no. although there are a few stuffed Stitch dolls in my room.
Take walks in the rain?:	not really, although i would if the opportunity arised.
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	quite often. although if Paris Hilton shows up, I'm soooo walking in the other direction.
Drive?:	no. and luckily in NY I don't have to!
Like to drive fast?:	no.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	No. i hate hate hate my voice.
Hurt yourself?:	Yeah, back during the whole Matt thing... and I'm ashamed to say, earlier this year. Whenever I get a broken heart, I tend to take it out on my hands. I'm a banger.
Been out of the country?:	Nope.
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	Not that I can remember.
Been in love?:	Yep.
Done drugs?:	No. I'm screwed up enough as it is.
Gone skinny dipping?:	No, but I used to really want to.
Had a medical emergency?:	Yeah, a couple. The last time was the day after my High School graduation when i sliced open my ankle. On my front door.
Had surgery?:	Yeah, as a child.
Ran away from home?:	No.
Played strip poker?:	Nooo. When I play strip poker, no one leaves a winner.
Gotten beaten up?:	No, amazingly.
Beaten someone up?:	No.
Been picked on?:	Yes. It was called K-12. And then it was called Toys R Us.
Been on stage?:	Yes, I appeared in the 6th grade production of Cabbage Patch Kids. I also sang a duet of "My Favorite Things" that year- then sang it as a solo.
Slept outdoors?:	Yeah, we used to like to set the tent up in the back yard.
Thought about suicide?:	Yes.
Pulled an all nighter?:	Absolutely. And not just to look at porn.
If yes, what is your record?:	For porn? Oh. um. Allnighter? I don't really know.
Gone one day without food?:	Like... ANY food? No- probably not.
Talked on the phone all night?:	No. Talked online all night? Yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	Yes.
Slept all day?:	Yes. I almost did that today. :( A perfectly good day off sucked off by too much sleep & SIN CITY.
Killed someone?:	I'll give you three guesses.
Made out with a stranger?:	No. Not yet.
Had sex with a stranger?:	Nope.
Thought you're going crazy?:	Yeah.
Kissed the same sex?:	Yup.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	Yup Yup.
Been betrayed?:	Sort of. Maybe. It was complicated.
Had a dream that came true?:	A few times. But it only made me wonder if what I was remembering as a dream never actually happened. Deja vu is a crazy thing.
Broken the law?:	Nope.
Met a famous person?:	Yeah- Tiffany. Anthony Rapp. Christian Bale. Neil Gaiman. Parker Posey. Jessica Lange.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	Maybe a bug or something.
On purpose?:	Bugs for sure.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	Yes. But it was REALLY good and the people I told didn't even work with the guy who jerked off in the bathroom stall.
Stolen anything?:	No. stealing is BAD IS THIS QUESTION ON EVERY QUIZ?!?
Been on radio/tv?:	I was on radio once. This is probably the most embarrassing thing I've ever said in these surveys... Um. I was on the radio calling in to hear "Save the Best for Last"
Been in a mosh-pit?:	nope.
Had a nervous breakdown?:	So close. Soooo close.
Bungee jumped?:	no thanks.
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	Not really.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	Yeah. Otherwise it's a big waste of space, right?
Miracles?:	I do believe in miracles.
Astrology?:	Nooooo
Magic?:	Sort of. I do.
God?:	Yes.
Satan?:	Yeah.
Santa?:	Nope, sadly my mom broke the truth to me at a Denny's. Um I was 12.
Ghosts?:	Yes.
Luck?:	Yeah kinda
Love at first sight?:	Perhaps.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	How would we recognize what is good if we didn't know bad? Yeah, I guess so.
Witches?:	Like Wiccans? Yeah, they exist. Like Glinda? No.
Easter bunny?:	Nope.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	No, I can't believe that. I wish I could.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	Nope.
Do you wish on stars?:	I used to.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	Yeah. and No. I don't know.
Do you think God has a gender?:	I do think if God has a gender then God is a woman.
Do you believe in organized religion?:	Absolutely not. Men have their own motives & designs. They can twist ideas to suit their own means.
Where do you think we go when we die?:	I do believe in Heaven.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	Yep.
Who is your best friend?:	I'd say Lily.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	Matty.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	"This too shall pass." my Mom.
Your favourite inside joke?:	Currently? "Your mom."
Thing you're picked on most about?:	Probably my poor ability to speak. Saying "Stonewall" rather than "Stonehedge" or "Matlock" instead of "MacGuyver"
Who's your longest known friend?:	Lisa!
Newest?:	Liz
Shyest?:	I don't know, it would be me, actually.
Funniest?:	This is tough. I'm going with Edwin.
Sweetest?:	Probably Lily.
Closest?:	Lily or Matty.
Weirdest?:	Dave.
Smartest?:	Liz. Chris. Edwin. all my friends are too smart for me.
Ditziest?:	Again, it would be me. Gilliane says it's her.
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Lisa!
Last person you talked to online?:	My mom.
Who do you talk to most online?:	Usually Matty. Currently Tony.
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Either Lily or my Mom.
Who do you trust most?:	Aside from my Mom & Brother? Matty or Lily.
Who listens to your problems?:	Lily/Matty
Who do you fight most with?:	I don't really fight with anyone. I get on Lily's nerves sometimes though.
Who's the nicest?:	Jeanne (& most patient & saintly & greatest cookie maker)
Who's the most outgoing?:	Lily
Who's the best singer?:	Dave's singing along with Sinatra is the best.
Who's on your shit-list?:	Martin for telling me that I had to write him as soon as I got to NY and then never responding.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	Ummm. yeah.
Who's your second family?:	Lily, Chris & Jeanne- my roommates!
Do you always feel understood?:	Not at all. Quite the opposite.
Who's the loudest friend?:	Gilliane, but in a good way. I love her laugh.
Do you trust others easily?:	Not at all.
Who's house were you last at?:	I can't remember being at anyone else's house lately... I'm going to go with Celso+Edwin's houses.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Yeah, I'm a cheeseball. My mom's.
Do your friends know you?:	I think for the mostpart, yes.
Friend that lives farthest away::	Matty. All the way on the West Coast.
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	Not really- I mean I've learned a lot from my past experiences with l'amour. So even if it doesn't work out, you can gain something.
What do you find romantic?:	Kindness. Gentleness. A sense of humor. A good man.
Turn-on?:	Um, general signs of manliness- hairy chest, 5 o'clock shadow, deep voice...
Turn-off?:	cruelty, immaturity, hair gel.
First kiss?:	SO wrong. but funny.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	I'd feel sympathetic. That's usually the position I'm in.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	I prefer to know somebody. Which isn't a good thing.
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	What the hell? Is it 1950 again? It IS socially acceptable. And it doesn't really affect me, so... whatever.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	Yeah, actually.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	Actually I think that *only* the opposite sex finds me good looking. Which doesn't bode well for me. Guys don't find me good looking.
What is best about the opposite sex?:	The friendship of women. This is a very heterosexist quiz.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	The way they tear each other down so much. Girls can be pretty vicious.
What's the last present someone gave you?:	Edwin & Celso gave me Harry Potter gifts as a going away present before I moved. It was sort of random.
Are you in love?:	Nope.
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	My left hand? Uh.
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	Don't want to say.
You wanted to kill?:	No doubt, one of the many customers camping out, sitting in front of a shelf I needed to get to & generally making a mess.
That you laughed at?:	Gilliane +/or Lily. They're sort of crazy.
That laughed at you?:	Gilliane- for saying Matlock instead of MacGuyver.
That turned you on?:	Z. :)
You went shopping with?:	Lily! At Foodtown! That's exciting stuff.
That broke your heart?:	Don't want to say. But everyone knows.
To disappoint you?:	I can't say that either.
To ask you out?:	Z.
To make you cry?:	Probably my mom, inadvertantly.
To brighten up your day?:	Jeanne- she made us cookies tonight. We're keeping Jeanne.
That you thought about?:	Sporklord. Where the hell has HE been??
You saw a movie with?:	Lily- SERENITY on Friday.
You talked to on the phone?:	Either my mom or Gilliane.
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	Shawn.
You saw?:	Lily, before she went to bed.
You lost?:	My grandfather.
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	No, I'm going to bed!
Will it be with your significant other?:	Yeah, my pillow named Sufjan.
Or some random person?:	I don't sleep with random people....
What are you wearing right now?:	t-shirt. pajama pants.
Body part you're touching right now::	??? I love doing surveys, but I don't LOVE doing surveys.
What are you worried about right now?:	riding the subway tomorrow. paying my bills.
What book are you reading?:	Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman.
What's on your mousepad?:	Trackpad, baby.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	Sleepy. Anxious. Randy. Hopeful. Melancholy.
Are you bored?:	I just spent like an hour doing this- clearly I was bored.
Are you tired?:	I am now.
Are you talking to anyone online?:	Sadly, no. Was hoping to be.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	Nope.
Are you lonely or content?:	Depends on when you ask me. Right now Lonely.
Are you listening to music?:	yes. Sinéad O'Connor's new album THROW DOWN YOUR ARMS
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